It has been a long week. A very, very long week. Full of emotional breakdowns, discomfort, sleep deprivation. The icing on the cake last night for me was watching Grey's Anatomy and having the pleasure of seeing one of the secondary characters involved in a c-section gone bad. Yes, I know it's just a show, but come on. I didn't need that. Not now. I don't know how it ended up, as my husband kindly turned the television off once I burst into tears.
Then today? I sit down at the computer, looking for some internet respite while baby boy naps away, and the main headline on MSNBC.com is about C diff, a bacteria that appears to be infecting every person who walks through the doors of a hospital. Fabulous. Again - I know this stuff exists, but really - did it have to make major news NOW?
As I walked by a mirror earlier this afternoon, simply horrified by the reflection staring back at me and getting ready to plunge deeper into this apparent - and hopefully temporary - state of depression that I'm in, baby boy toddled up with a bag in his hands, held it out to me, and said, "F*ck sack?"
Sure buddy, you can have some fruit snacks. And thanks - I needed that.
4 comments:
She lived. She's going to be fine. I am a bit jealous that soon you're going to have a new baby girl... BUT I'm not jealous of that crazy fear that comes right before... Remember... Everything will be fine... Really. It will.
((hugs))
You are so wonderful and sweet and vulnerable and are going to be OKAY! Thanks for the post.
Thank heavens for little boys,(little girls too) but you need the comic relief at that point.
oh, mckenzie, i swear to GAWD i thought i had commented already on this.
i find that reading anything on the internets is not a good thing... when it comes to just about anything medicine/medical-related. it's only good when it has to go with brittany or kim kardashian and her giant ass.
you will be fine - can't wait to read the from-the-OR blogs, or just-after-giving-birth blogs.
xoxo
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